Today’s Chapter almost never happened. It was Canada Day on Friday. I spent the long weekend out of it–not in my usual element.
Every time I’d stand at my desk to write, I’d wonder away–watching Youtube videos or found myself going down rabbit holes. This is so much fun
Couldn’t get focused for fifteen-fucking-seconds. Argh!
I tried to shake it off, to only come back to lip-lock frustration. I wanted to get stuff done this weekend, and regardless the excitement, three days and two nights later, nothing.
Resistance had me cornered. What the fuck am I going to write? I laid down beside my desk, with feet up on the chair, feeling anxious and sense of total failure. In the emptiness, a moment of temporary defeat, here’s what I realised.
It’s so easy to just not do it–to not write this weekly email, to not go to the gym, to not stick to a diet, to not show up, to not make an effort, to not talk to the pretty girl at the coffee shop, to not deliver a project, to not keep a promise, to not stick to the plan–to simply not do something at all.
Giving in and up, in a tough pickle, by letting negativity overcome you is the easy way out. And, we know, those days are just the–fucking–worst but those are the only days that really count.
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